life is frightening sometimes but theres no way around that. you cant deny yourself the paralyzing and perplexing times that could ultimately define your life. as soon as we rounded the last corner everything beneath my skin disappeared. heat in my stomach and cold on my face and it still hasnt gone away. twenty minutes and all i can do is sit. breathless... speechless. its all i can do to find a comfortable position and try not to fidget. this is good, i know it but for now... id rather not deal. so pay me some attention. my mind is racing but grinding. i dont know what to do. you created this void in me now fill it. when youre in my dreams im dying.

"ever since the chinese food i havent been the same" ~ flo