i was sittin in church today and i started wondering again... 2 things really got to me. you know when the whole congregation is saying something out of the hymnal (or off the projection screen for us)? you read all slow and stuff. everyone somehow pauses at the same time. how does everyone pause at the same time? how does everyone know to pronounce the words at the same speed and stop all at once and everything?? its odd, like a school of baitfish we all stand there and say the words. they're meaningful and all but once you stop listening to the words and start hearing the people its different. its just dadadada.... da dada... dada da.... amen. you know? how do they know? and also, whenever someone performs or someone sings or the choir is up there doing there thing and they finish a song sometimes you clap and sometimes you dont. why dont we clap all the time? does it not make them feel bad that we all just sit there and stare at them till someone else says something? we clap for some and not for others and i dont know why... does anyone really know? i know i dont clap until i hear others clap. how many other people wait till they hear everyone else clapping? is there some kind of clap initiator somewhere that gets a signal to start the clap or not? is he the one that claps first so the whole congregation gains momentun into an applause? how does he know anyway? if i were to clap just to start it would everyone look at me funny or join in? would it piss the clap initiator off? if everyone did clap with me, would it be an accomplishment? like starting a cheer at a game? anyway, im not sure how that works either.

the best thing about this morning was at church too. it wasnt in the sermon or in sunday school or anything, just an act of humanity. theres this guy, hes i dont know 17 or something. he looked like he may be injured or theres something wrong with him or something but maybe not too. he was just sittin in the hall. i dont know him at all. im about to walk past like usual and he says, ''good morning.'' so im like, ok, goodmorning too. so he starts asking me how my morning went and stuff so im like, it was alright, got out of the house late... you know. and he goes, yeah haha, its all cool tho. so i say yeah and he goes, well have a good day then. and i go, yeah you too. and i went to the bathroom. on my way out he just goes... "goodmorning... again" so i say it again and smile and it was cool. a complete stranger to me just asked how i was doing. it was uplifting sort of, rekindled my faith in humanity a little. just the knowledge that there are people out there who just care enough to overcome the unspoken rules of being strangers and talk to you... its almost amazing. anyway, i just thought i would relate that to you guys and maybe you will remember it next time you see someone who doesnt look too happy. you know, spread the love. goodnite guys!