Friday, April 25, 2003

hey everyone!!! ahh its a good night, or it just may be an illusion but im happy so i dont care. besides the fact that i had to miss the luau... sorry everyone... cause of lifeguarding training, it was good. spend hours in the pool and my face is all cracked and dry and i smell like something that could knock t-shirt stains into last month but thats ok cause its real. let me explain... in english we just read "siddhartha." its a dry book that explains how this indian guy goes through all these thoughts and comes to the conclusion that... aww i forget but thats not the point. the point is, in class we got to write a journal on reality. so while everyone else was scratching their heads with their chewed pencils, i of course just wrote about it... and enjoyed it cause seeeeee thinking is fun!! no really, but it was good to get some stuff out on paper and see what happened. heres about what i came up with, albeight slightly modified since i have subsequently been thinking more since then plus a theory or so of my own...

my explanation of reality (and consequently god): first of all, the physical world is defined as the world we see, feel, hear and smell; the conceptual world is the ideals, the perfect circles, the geometric and theoretical utopia of shape and figure etc.

i agree with sidd that the physical world is shallow but important as well as the conceptual one. a lot of the time, we almost get used to living in our world and sort of take it all for granted. but have you ever just looked around and become aware of space, of time, of matter...? awareness is the ultimate key to understanding everything. you cant just take it for granted that whats there is there and what you hear is actually what you hear. you have to notice it and realize it to yourself so you understand it. to actually realize that you are surrounded by 4 walls (or standing in an open field), to look at them and gauge them and feel them with your mind, to analyze the space from you to the wall, to look at that instead of whats behind it and appreciate that too. (really now, take a look at something across the room from you. now imagine that theres something hanging in the air between you and it. stare at that space, that point in the world and think about it. that space is just as valuble as whats behind it, what you were originally looking at. i know that space is filled with air and such but for now, space is space alright?) to see everyone around you and try to believe that they are real and not just matrix-esque nerve impulses to your brain, to believe in the physical world and the conceptual or afterlife at the same time. (id like to believe that the matrix... from what ive heard anyway, never saw the movie... isnt true, that what we see and hear and smell and taste and feel are actually there and the nerve impulses to our brain are actually triggered by something... you know. if the matrix is true however, i cant believe in anyone but me which is kindof sad for all you but guess what, i dont care. im inclined to be shallow but thoughtful and believe in this world as the truth and think that everything has value because if it doesnt, whats the value of your life anyway?) you can push and poke the wall all day and your finger will likely not go through it. in a lazy sense we know that this is true, shit, its a wall... its what it is, but to realize that its there and not in your imagination is something different. (you have to come to an understanding, and not just a lazy one, that what you see and feel are real, are actually physically there, and that whatever reality we live in, that that is a part of it and belongs there. you know that simply because you cant put your hand through a brick wall. its really that easy. you may say, of course you cant, its a brick wall but that is lazy. it doesnt matter that its a brick wall or any other such wall as long as the matter is there and you cant put your hand through it. its real, its reality. someday this will hit you...) and if you cant believe in the physical world, cant conceptualize space or are able to look past it, God isnt really a question because reality isnt real. (reality cant base itself on nothing, thats why the physical world isnt important. for me to be thinking this, for you to be reading this, reality is real.) sometimes, to be enlightened to the physicality of things can be seeing God because theres no denying some how its creation. if there wasnt a God, it wouldnt be so... physical. (this is all assuming you have grasped the fact that the wall is there because it was created, not by man but by God in the sense that it wouldnt be there without God...) even if there was a big bang somewhere back in time, where did all that matter come from anyway? did it spontaneously generate from empty space? (which we kindof understand is impossible... unless it was created by God) does space exist without being relative to matter? (i like this one. what is space? space is the lack of matter. so would there be any space if there werent matter? no. why? because space is relative to matter. an inch in our world is just relative to two matter-made-things an inch apart. if there were no things, the inch wouldnt be there would it? i mean, whats empty space empty of if nothing exists? would matter exist if there were no space? no. because matter is relative to space too... you see, its like one of my favorite thoughts, "is success really success if you had no chance of losing anyway?" no, success is relative to the chance of failure. so if theres no failure, there is no success. its the same reason no utopia can exist... because there can be no happiness. theres no happiness because happiness is just relative to sadness, of which utopia's are lacking... so you see, its all relative...) all in all, to concieve yourself as "being", to realize that you are thinking and to look at yourself and believe that you are there, where you see yourself, you have to conceptualize and believe in everything physical and space as well as time. (because time is of course relative to motion which we know is part of reality because of physicality) then nothing is really questionable.

another thing i started thinking about when i heard about the matrix was color. what is color exactly? well, color is light reflected by different things that all but absorbed that color. color can be seen clearly when regular earthly white light is broken down by a prism and we see a spectrum... thats right correct? i mean everything ive said has been proven but think, what hasnt been proven? what colors havent we seen? try for a minute, try and imagine a color that youve never seen before. a color that doesnt exist on our spectrum on earth... cant do it can you? thats right because we are used to seeing in white light. everything you see is an effect of white light. now, what if, persay, on other planets somewhere, off other suns there is a different light? maybe there is X light. X light would break up into an entirely different spectrum and everything on planet X would reflect that light. try to imagine it, another world with completely different colors than ours. my guess is that either our eyes couldnt handle it and we would go blind or just not see it because the rods and cones wouldnt percieve it. now its possible that there is X light here too but everything we see absorbs it, after all thats why nothing is really every color at the same time. so its possible really that with another kind of light, we could see other things. maybe there are angels, spirits everywhere that reflect X light. if you could physically comprehend it you would be able to see them. so think about it next time. what arent you seeing? what is white light not showing you? its nice to know theres always another possibility isnt it?

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